Mumblings and Musings...

I Am Suffocating at Home

I literally feel like Holly inBreakfast at Tiffany’swhen she’s talking about being a wild bird that just wants to fly up, up, and up. I can’t stand it here anymore sometimes. It’s just too much. I love my parents, but I am literally going to be out of the house in less than 100 days. THEY ARE WAY TOO OVERBEARING AND FRUSTRATING AND A;SLDKJFS;LDKJF I can’t handle it anymore. I really just need a fresh start away from them and by myself. I have such an independent spirit. I’ve had senioritis since I was like a sophomore. Like I said before, it is literally nothing against my parents, they are great, but they are just overprotective and I’m sick of it. I need to get away

I need to fly

Going to see Mitch at state tomorrow! (:

The Black Keys concert was AHHHmazing. We had so much fun(: Also, also, also we sang Phantom of the Opera’s All I Ask of You together at our Spring Concert and we held hands in front of everyone and this is a run on sentence but I don’t care because he’s amazing! I’m so excited for this summer.
On another note: I’m kind of mad at my parents because I got in a car accidentish on Wednesday and I have a small dent in my car that is barely noticeable, but they are making me get it fixed and it is going to cost a bunch of money. I have fucking college to pay for people. Why would you make me waste a bunch of that money to “teach me a lesson” that I already understand? So. Dumb. End rant.

Everything is so good!!

Going to the Black Keys concert tonight with him :)

He’s acting different.. Scott thinks that it might be because he just hasn’t really been in a relationship before… but it’s different and I don’t like it:(

He asked me last week, “This girl that I’ve known since I was three made it into prom court and needed an escort so she asked me, but I wanted to check with you to make sure that it would be okay. It’s not weird at all between us.” I said sure of course.. buuut it is weird. It’s not that I don’t trust him, he’s not like that at all, it’s that I don’t trust the other girls. But whatever. It was last night. What are you going to do? 

A Little Back Story to Begin…

I haven’t had the best luck in relationships. I tend to like guys who like me first, which starts out nice… but then you realize that you have absolutely nothing in common with them. How did that happen so much? Every time I convinced myself that it was different… but I think I’ve learned. I sure hope I’ve learned.. The last guy I dated talked about getting married.. I’m only 18. That was a big surprise and made me take that step back to realize that we really didn’t have too much there…

But now! I’m kind of, sort of, not exactly sure what we’re called yet, dating my best friend that I’ve known since third grade. We have just about everything in common, I love spending time with him, and we both really want to travel everywhere. Also he’s super attractive. (Not something that was common in the last guys.. because that’s not all that matters.. but hey, it’s definitely a plus) One major problem though.. we’re both going to college next year and I’m going to school in California and he’s going to school in Michigan.. Some people might say that it’s going to be super hard… okay everyone, but I’m hoping that because we have an established friendship and will be coming home on breaks to the same place that it will hopefully work. Because out of all of my mistakes… he’s perfect.

So this is just the story of a girl dealing with life, love, mistakes, aspirations, and wanting to travel the world and take it all in one day at a time.